kringonian pizzazz

 I'm going through a lot of diagnostics and assessments. happy that my health insurance covers this. seeing if I'm on the autism spectrum in a gifted artistic kind of way. fascinated by all the quizzes and tests I've taken over the last several weeks. they say in 2 weeks I will have a printed out assessment of what they think of my brain... pros and cons. when I was a kid my parents never wanted to have me tested for anything cuz I think they didn't want me labeled as anything... so at the age of 54 I decided to have this assessment done and it's been fascinating. I've been taking lots of quizzes answering 585 true and false questions solving puzzles drawing pictures responding to pictures and words telling stories,. reading stories...I also brought my artwork in to show the lady assessing me... she's training to be a clinical psychologist and her interviewing me several times have given has given her lots of data... so I find this whole process fascinating. My goal with this is to learn and grow from all of it and use the perspective that this person has on me as a way to move forward in my life as I step into the future. Seems to me I'm kind of an unusual 54-year-old... I mean everybody is unique but I like exploring my identity and figuring out who I am and what I want and the choices I've made make more and more sense the older I get I always wanted to make my art and share it with people more than I wanted to do traditional things like get married and have kids etc. And I've always wondered is it just because of the way my brain is or is it partly because of the challenges of the way that I was raised and my parents getting a divorce and various pros and cons of how I was raised challenges that I went through etc I'm just learning and growing as I go.... And most of my closest friends are rather eccentric creative trail blazing people that have their own way of doing things... The person assessing me- she's interviewed me a lot and I've shared my artwork and my video with her and then she's quizzing me and scoring me based on certain modules of assessments that give me a score but she's also basing it on her and her supervisors assessment of the answers I've given to lots of different questions and sharing about my entire life... my childhood, my personal life, my relationships, my family, my friends, my social way of interacting with people etc it's all been really fascinating. the lady assessing me says she's impressed with how self aware and sensitive and articulate i am- all good traits to have. so i cope very well overall with my challenges. my career as an art and medical model, artist and animal lover suits me very well. i enjoy lots of time solo doing my own thing and need rest and recharge time then love collaborating with like minded creative humans....people who "get me" are so precious to me. thanks everyone who "gets me" cheers! onward "kringonian pizzazz"!