recent shannon kringen ideas dreams and more tori amos etc.
Interesting.
I just watched a 2-hour interview with literally people that used to
work for the CIA and do top secret things and they wrote a book about it
and what's interesting is that....And yes, they had to have a lawyer
and fight for the right to write such a book and they were only allowed
to disclose certain information
and then they kept other information secret . Nothing They said
surprised me at all in terms of the things that they were allowed to
disclose about how secret operations work and how people sneak around
and spy to investigate what's really going on and fool each other and
the harsh rules about what governments legally can do... Now average
people are not aware of this and average people are very naive about it.
So why is it that I'm not naive and that a lot of my intuitive ideas
and the patterns I see are correct. It's almost like I think like a spy
who has secrets... interesting... In some ways I'm oblivious to what's
really going on, but in some ways I think like a person who is tuned
into the underworld or whatever you want to call it. I seem to think
like a private investigator actually trying to figure out what's really
going on underneath all of them manipulations and psychological blocks,
and I'm willing to see past romantic idea of what is true and what is
false to the nitty-gritty of human behaviour and how people have agendas
and goals and they'll do whatever it takes to achieve those goals.
Whether it's ethical or not ethical and this kind of stuff happens in
many ways, not just with people that work for the CIA and do secret
operations, but just basic human survival in the average lives of
regular ordinary people.
What's
funny about me is that in my personal life I have a hard time listening
to other people and you know how when people talk to each other and
they interrupt each other like in normal life. When you have
conversations, people don't necessarily listen to each other in both
directions, but when there's a stage involved,
there's something magical about the stage when somebody's up there,
speaking or singing or dancing or acting or performing in some way.
There's something magical about it and it makes me listen carefully when
somebody's on stage with a microphone and I like being on stage with a
microphone or videotaping myself or being on camera. There's something
magical about theater and performance and communication through a stage
scenario. Setting whatever you want to call it. There's something sacred
about it and I really like both being in the audience and listening as
well as being on stage and sharing communication
What
I notice when I speak my poetry in front of people. I'm always amazed
that they're actually listening to me. It feels like a luxury to
actually be listened to and I also like to listen to other people when
they read what they wrote, whether it's music or poetry or a story
Read my new poem "57 painted in the corner" in front of PoetryBridge community. And I'll be in the video that they're
going to upload to their YouTube channel. This will be the third video
that I've been in with all the other interesting writers. It is very
cool to listen to every single person who writes and reads. we all
have a different style. I will link their YouTube channel in comments
if you want to check it out and listen to The poets read including me
and all the other people. I am part of the September and October 2025
video that they have on their YouTube channel.
Just
woke up from a Tori Amos dream. Her husband was there and a few other
women that were lovers of her music along with me and we were in a
kitchen in her house and there was a small theater on the other side of
her house where the audience was waiting but there was about five of us
women that were allowed to be
in the personal kitchen area with her and her husband and there was a
few kittens wandering around and she asked if I wanted to go for a walk
with her in the rain and one of the kittens and I remember I had my
opalescent umbrella with me and I remember seeing the real Tori versus
the stage personat... With no makeup and no wig and her guard down and
dressed very casually similar to me in like comfortable sandals and
there was a really thick gate that we had to unlock and you can hear and
smell the rain and now I remember there was a guy there that was acting
inappropriately and people were shaming him but they were doing it in a
humiliating way and I brought up the fact that when people say they're
feminist but then the humiliate men that's not real feminism and that I
brought up the fact that I liked it Tori has spoken about how sometimes
women betray each other and women are cruel to each other and I said
maybe that's the same thing as being cruel to men even though you say
you're feminist which means equality for men and women there's some
hypocrisy going on there and some people in the room gave me dirty looks
when I said that and then Tori nodded her head but it wasn't sure if
she was going to acknowledge my point or not and then when she said
let's walk in the rain together with her and the kitten I was happy and
then I realized there was like a few other people that were going to
come with us and I wasn't going to get a walk alone with Tori in the
rain and I was sad and then she saw a sign that said bring Prince back
and then she said we should bring Prince back it was amazing and he had
precious gems to share and there was this weird red sparkly sign and
Tori said whenever I look at the back of my knees I think of the bottom
of prince's feet and then I realize that I can connect the dots and then
the dream faded out... I also remember in the kitchen there was lots of
copper like shiny copper objects everywhere with a pattern in them
almost like unusual sculptures but they had something to do with doing
things in the kitchen
each
family is different. i respect that. The only connection I have
specifically in my family to veterans Day is that I know my grandfather
on one side of my family was in world war II and he had post-traumatic
stress disorder from that. (and my dad lucked out and did not get called
into the Vietnam war- he was going
to flee to Canada or find a way out if his name was called so he
lucked out and was not drafted in the 1960's- my dad would never even
hold a weapon- he's a very sensitive person who would not be a good
"soldier" my dad is not macho. he is strong in a different kind of
masculine way with fitness- he's an athlete and into diplomacy and not
"war") So I will say may all the veterans get whatever support and help
they need in dealing with whatever they went through while serving in
the military. And I know that our military is the largest in the world
in the USA and yet our veterans don't necessarily get what they need and
they generally don't... And so that's really upsetting to me. So may
the veterans get all the support that they need that makes it fair for
them even though we honestly know that they don't. But I'm glad there's
people out there trying to help make it better for veterans. And I'm not
a fan of war and I'm not a fan of romanticizing and glorifying war and
the reality of war and I could never join the military. if I had to join
the military and they forced me to= I would volunteer to be a nurse or a
cook. I would never be a soldier, I just could not do it...
conscientious objector, etc. #VeteransDay2025
random ideas from me for november 2025
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