Shannon Nicole Kringen thoughts Goddess KRING
Here's my stream of consciousness essay for today and I know that a lot of people find me annoying but this is the way that I express myself so take it or leave it. Good luck to everyone ! I like to say be yourself no matter what they say. That's from a sting song I love called Englishman in New York ... Really wanting to figure out how to organize my photos and my videos and all my projects that I'm doing. Music, poetry, photos, videos, pet sitting, art modeling all of it, my artwork and all the things that I do for a living. I just kind of surf all these different waves and I guess that's my style. So maybe I should make a documentary film. Just documenting the random chaosness of my life. I don't know if I can really put together a linear story very well. Probably going to have to find other people that want to make a film with me, but the classic Goddess Kring style of making a movie would be to do it in my own strange improv chaos way!? And maybe the way that I share online already is me documenting my life and like my whole life is like an ongoing show and tell documentary anyway. But I do like the idea of actually trying to tell a story in a filmmaking way and make it a feature length with its own original music score and make one that's good enough to submit to film festivals and or screen in Seattle in a theater that I would rent. The Northwest film Forum has a theater that people can rent. Maybe there's other options as well. Would be cool to have a visual art show and a movie screening and share Multimedia creativity that I do. It would be interesting to have a show of my visual art and videos in a movie on my art car and then fill up an entire room of paintings and drawings that artists have done of me over the years like the finished fine art pieces that have been made in my likeness to show my work as an art model because I've been modeling since 1992. Although I'm doing less of that now and more of taking care of pets right now and also work with medical students as a standardized patient. Kind of trying to tell the story of my life in a linear way might be a challenge, especially for someone like me that has total improv chaos brain. I also like the idea of having other people interview me who like my show or like my art and interview me or I interview them about how my art affected them because my TV show it was mostly just me doing monologues by myself solo. So I was thinking that a departure from that would be to involve other people more and have dialogues or interviews with other people whether they interview me or I interview them just to kind of expand on the whole concept of the communication of me and the way I see the world and wanting to share some of my way of seeing the world with other people. I am on the autism spectrum officially in terms of mainstream psychological assessments. I don't always buy into all of that, but I have officially gone through testing and assessing of the way my brain works and they say I am on the autism spectrum. Of course it's not an exact science. Nothing much is these days, but it's good to know that my brain is unusual in some ways and I have a way of processing information that is usually not in chronological order and I have a poor working memory supposedly. But I think some of my neurodivergent traits actually serve me well in my art. I think the fact that I can do improv art. The way that I can is partly because my brain is non-linear and I see patterns and connect dots in my own kind of way and maybe this helps me create a unique style of art and poetry and music and painting and photography etc. So maybe if I do a movie I should just go with my strange style? My eccentric non-linear non-chronological order random chaos order. That's my style but I would like to actually tell a story with a beginning a middle and an end and that would be interesting and compelling and engaging the audience. But I guess what I really need to do is create something that I think is interesting that I love and trust that there's an audience out there for that. And if not, if it's completely not connecting with an audience, at least I will know that. I really am an eccentric person that doesn't quite know how to connect with an audience. And maybe that's okay too because every single person is totally unique and that's a literal fact. And maybe that's totally fine. We're all here together and yet we're all completely different at the same time.
I guess my main projects right now are work on making a film. A documentary about my life and my public access show. Write a memoir kind of book autobiography, creative book and keep working on music- basically keep writing poetry and publishing that and then turn it into music with Dave Flowers and modeling and photography and painting in my abstract style. I'm just making it up as I go. Maybe having goals. It doesn't even matter. Maybe just keep the free form improv going and just create as much as I can for my entire life and that is my purpose perhaps and share it with whoever wants to see it and learn as I go. I'm open to whatever interesting opportunities come my way and collaborating with other people on these multimedia projects. It does seem like my best work is mostly solo, but I have collaborated with some great artists when I model and the music I'm doing right now is a huge collaboration with another person and that is maybe a new thing for me to really collaborate well with another person. Maybe that's my autism where I work best by myself and that gets interpreted as a form of narcissism by some people and yet I feel most comfortable when I work. Mostly alone. And yet I do long to connect and collaborate with others. But only if I can really use my talent to the best of my ability and not feel like I'm watering it down or something or getting all shy and clamming up around other people. That's part of why I like to work alone because I'm not shy when I'm by myself. But when I work with other people I get like I'm a clan that's hiding in her shell and I don't know why I do that but I'm just really sensitive in a certain way and I need to relax and Bloom like a flower. Basically when I do the best art that I can do, I think that's way it seems anyway. And then people tell me don't overthink it but I love to think!
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